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A chronicle since 2005 of my marriage & move to Brooklyn in my twenties; becoming a mother in my thirties; moving to Pennsylvania and learning to amicably coparent after divorce in my forties while living 3 doors down from my ex-husband in a small country town.
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Tuesday
Nov292005

Stockholm Syndrome

I'm not your prisoner
I'm just a visitor
in this life we have made
Fevered kisses
lifetime wishes
trapped in your serenade
I'm not the same
ain't it a shame
the way we both degrade
If I turn off my phone
will I see you at home?
Another love crusade...

Reader Comments (8)

Your husband is in Stockholm I see. Pretty clever word play. I like it.
November 29, 2005 | Unregistered CommenterJAY
I get it! Here I was reading up on stockholm syndrome and thinking it was clever that you were likening your relationship to stockholm syndrome. I often feel like I'm losing my self in my relationship and feel like a prisoner. I didn't realize the serge is in stockholm until I looked at marah's tour dates. Very cool
November 29, 2005 | Unregistered CommenterDebbie
this is his last show, no? dates show no more shows until new york. he'll be home soon.
November 29, 2005 | Unregistered CommenterDebbie
Where did the other post go??
November 30, 2005 | Unregistered CommenterJen
I deleted it. Not sure why other than it just seemed like more of the same depression talk that seems to have become my brand.
November 30, 2005 | Registered CommenterMonicaBielanko
Monica don't ever think it's the same old same old. As you always tell me to do keep posting about my battle with depression, you do so as well. We girls who are fighting a demon need to keep together, need to keep writing.

I've never blogged so much the past few days on myspace like I have the past few days. Mine of course hasn't been just because of depression the past few days, but a broken heart. Writing about it doesn't always seem at the time like it helps. Sometimes you think it makes you feel worse, but then I go back and read it and if a tear comes up then it does, crying isn't so bad sometimes. Just as posting about the same thing about depression isn't so bad at all. If you want us to read it, I'll proudly read it. And chances are more than just me know exactly what your writing about or how your feeling. I know that's for sure.
November 30, 2005 | Registered CommenterFiabug
Sorry to sound like the silly optimistic athiest, but why is everyone 'round these parts always gloom and doom about something? I know the world is difficult, I know we all have issues, I know we all don't make enough money (exept me), I know it rains sometimes, I know George Bush is a retard, I know about inflation, mortgages, world hunger, world peace, global warming, vanilla latte not quite warm enough, diarreah, dirty diapers, sore back, same stupid ass tv shows (except ROME on HBO), same conversation, same sex, same hangover, same 9/11, same Iraq war, same patriot act, same religious bull shit, same, same, same, same, same, same, same......Oh fuck a duck, now I am depressed....Where in the mother fuck is my alcohol, where are my pills, god damn you Homer Simpson, why did you let "the man" ruin your great one liners......ahhhhhhh....ahhhh, I wish I were a lesbian.....

Ahhh, now I feel better.

Later,

CChild
November 30, 2005 | Unregistered Commentercchild
cchild said: "Sorry to sound like the silly optimistic athiest, but why is everyone 'round these parts always gloom and doom about something?"

Such a typical response from a man. Go start your own boring, happy blog dissecting baseball stats. I'm venting :)
December 2, 2005 | Registered CommenterMonicaBielanko

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