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Monica Bielanko
A chronicle since 2005 of my marriage & move to Brooklyn in my twenties; becoming a mother in my thirties; moving to Pennsylvania and learning to amicably coparent after divorce in my forties while living 3 doors down from my ex-husband in a small country town.
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Thursday
Nov172005

It's Always Something

When I was 6 it was a Cabbage Patch Kid.. or a Pound Puppy
When I was 9 it was a synthesizer.. I fantasized about playing keyboards in a band like the Go Go's or The Bangles
When I was 10 it was a brand new ten speed
When I was 11 it was a Guns & Roses or INXS cassette, a concert tee shirt would be icing, and bangs that curled properly
When I was 12 it was Joey Call, Andy Farrer, Dave Tate, Andrew Roberts and clothes from the Gap so I could look cool in Junior High
When I was 13 it was Guess jeans, Polo shirts, Dave Tate, Mike Morrow, and Casey.. Oh! And I wanted my big brother dead
When I was 14 it was Girbaud jeans, Casey, and becoming a cheerleader
When I was 15 it was my drivers license, a car, and Andrew Roberts again
When I was 16 it was still a car, more clothes, a skinny body, Josh Roberts and a new family
When I was 17 it was a new life, skinnier body, blonder hair, better clothes and college
When I was 19 it was for him to get a divorce, a college degree already, and money
When I was 21 it was still for him to get a divorce, a better car and becoming a news reporter
When I was 22 it was living on the beach in California, better clothes, skinnier body, and a good boyfriend
When I was 24 it was a skinnier body, leaving the boyfriend and a better shift at the news station where I worked
When I was 25 it was more money, better apartment, skinnier body, and Andy Rosenberg
When I was 26 it was a skinnier body, published writer, a four wheel drive truck, season ski pass and Andy Rosenberg
When I was 27 it was skinnier body, get over Andy Rosenberg, move away from Utah
Now that I'm 28 it's becoming a better wife, a better person, write my book, get published, and... skinnier body.. Some things never change. But it's always something, isn't it?

Reader Comments (3)

I should be on there every year!!!
November 17, 2005 | Unregistered Commentercchild
Remember BK's?? British Knights! LOL
November 17, 2005 | Unregistered CommenterJen
I remember BK's!! LMAO

Monica, it is always something.

For me almost 32 being a better parent.

Being this, being that.....it's always something I REPEAT! It's just so much! I just sometimes want to say FUCK IT ALL!

Your doing good. You have a man who is madly in love with you totally and completely with all your good parts and your bad faults and vice versa! I know I've talked to him...all I have to do is say your name and I see the twinkle in his eye.

Love ya!!
February 8, 2006 | Unregistered CommenterFiabug

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