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Monica Bielanko
A chronicle since 2005 of my marriage & move to Brooklyn in my twenties; becoming a mother in my thirties; moving to Pennsylvania and learning to amicably coparent after divorce in my forties while living 3 doors down from my ex-husband in a small country town.
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Thursday
Oct272005

The Girl Who

I am The Girl Who never feels good enough. I am The Girl Who constantly worries over what you will think about me. So much so that I am The Girl Who is afraid you will think I'm a melodramatic whiner when I say I am The Girl Who never feels good enough. I am The Girl Who has created a fantastic facade to convince you that I'm The Girl Who feels good enough. I am The Girl Who is afraid of being found out. I am The Girl Who isn't sure what there is to find out which leads me to believe I am The Girl Who needs to find a way to feel good about herself regardless of what you think about The Girl Who.

Reader Comments (14)

You are a girl who needs a HUG! :)
Hugz from Jen! :)
October 27, 2005 | Unregistered CommenterJen
Don't we all just feel like this...
October 27, 2005 | Unregistered CommenterVelvet In Dupont
Helloooooo! You are the girl who is awesome! Despite flaws, becuase of flaws! We all wish we were good enough, sometimes feel like we are, know when we're not. I would hate to be good enough, I'm scared I'm not. I look in the mirror and say, who the f am I, at least you are the girl who..is putting herdelf out there.
October 27, 2005 | Unregistered CommenterJulia
these feelings have got to be universal, right? i don't trust anyone who says they don't feel this way. either they're lying or they're not capable of self-reflection. so screw 'em. ;)
October 27, 2005 | Unregistered Commentersusan
Susan is so right. Each one of us have felt this way at one point. I feel this way each and every day. I too am a girl who needs to find a way to feel good about herself regardless of what anyone else thinks of her. I am constantly struggling and battling with my own self.

You are your worse enemy they say and I believe it to be so. You are your own worse critic and that is so.

Monica, you are a wonderful person. You are a woman not a girl, a woman who has so much potential, so much talent, creativity and a good heart. This is what The Surge finds so appealing, attractive and why he loves you so much. He knows you are beautiful not just on the outside but the inside as well. Your not fake, you have depth to you. And that's why I and many others here have fallen in love with you. I hope that doesn't come off wrong, but I haven't met you yet and love you like a sister already. I feel we are all sister's.

October 27, 2005 | Registered CommenterFiabug
Your The Girl Who is one of my most favorite bloggers.
October 27, 2005 | Unregistered CommenterHeather B.
The Girl Who can write. And that's why I visit.
October 27, 2005 | Unregistered CommenterPLD
Is SOMEONE having a case of the "thursdays"(a la Office Space)????

Oh La-ru....you're more fabulous than the rest of us and your married to a hot rock star. Uh...HE-LLO?????? Have you LOOKED at yourself lately? I'd have you in a threesome anyday!

You have friends. You have fans. You are beautiful and you are well liked. Now quit yer bitchin'.
October 27, 2005 | Registered Commentertallchickbarbara
Watch the threesome comments Barb.. I may take you up on it.. Do pregnant ladies do threesomes? And if so, does that make it a foursome?
October 27, 2005 | Unregistered CommenterMonica
a 3 1/2some?

So, it goes from supportive hugs to sex talk. Is this what the girl's locker room is like?

CH
October 27, 2005 | Unregistered CommenterChueb
There's got to be a porno out there with this as the story line.
October 27, 2005 | Registered Commentertallchickbarbara
Gross yet intriguing.....
October 27, 2005 | Unregistered CommenterJulia
you're the one!
October 27, 2005 | Unregistered Commenterchantilly
Wow.
October 30, 2005 | Unregistered CommenterJeff Funk

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